Screwed

abit screwed right now.

$100 lost. Right from my locked drawer. Don't really want to talk about it. Makes me boil.

Sim Card lost. Have to pay the replacement + the phone bills (from my pocket)

+ many other stuffs.

Moody now. Probably fight with someone if they provoke me.

help me God.

I've been living my life
like this
with many friends
yet without
it's like an empty shell
they don't know well
I can't tell
how I feel
except to the person

life is a little funny sometimes.

You can tell everything to the person you like, except that you love and wana be with her.
You can't tell everything to your friends, except about superficial stuffs.

don't live life like me.
I just can't speak out.
I can't say anything more than what I normally talk about to my friends
the deepest feelings, guilt, regret, anger, frustrations, I keep to myself.

guess I'm a real loner deep down.

No one to share my pain.
No ones fault.
It's mine.
I refuse to share.

'it's those times I talk to you
then could I tell you my biggest hopes and fears.
But the time has come and gone.
dunno what the future brings.
and I hope against hope.'

-6477 8355464 968 22688 69 329- only you know what I feel.