My Majesty

Here I am to talk about my feelings once again. In the middle of the night, with nothing but emotions that seems to have reached out from the depths of my past to haunt me. Emotions is a powerful thing. If you can't control it, you risk letting it control you and casuing you to run amok.

Stability is an issue in life, without it, there is nothing that you can commit to without failing to complete it. Stability comes from having the right foundation, and the right foundation can only be found on the solid rock of humanity, that is, God. It is He who has made us and created the earth, how much more stable can we get besides Him. If we have stability in our lives, we can stand fast on the Word of God, and trust in His promises all the days of our lives. Many times, we look towards our own troubles, problems, and begin to blame Him when it is our fault in the first place. Yet He is graceful and merciful to forgive us and aid us. We need a solid foundation to built our lives upon, else we will not be able to doo anything great in life. Some find their stability in relationships, money, love, assets, but these things are only temporary. The only thing that is of eternity is God, because He dwells in eternity, and therefore, the only person stable enough to build on that is not of this earth is God. Where is He then? we ask. Seemingly trying to see, sense, 'feel' Him, just for the sake of it, not because we want to seek Him but because we want to prove whether He is real. We can choose to build our lives upon His word, and the Holy Spirit, who will lead us to do the right things at the right time. To do so, we will have to have the lamb nature, being submissive, and no longer living for self. Then can we achieve success in the things He has called us to do. Other things are just a distraction in life if there is no will of God in it. This may seemed to be foolishness to those who are not of the light, but it is only because their minds have been darkened.

So Lord, I know I've been running away from You this few days, not wanting to face the truth, wanting to live my life for myself, tired of doing what's right. I don't know how to live this kind of life for long, I need You more than ever. I need a miracle!

All things I've considered worth nothing if I can't do Your will in my lifetime. I really cannot make it on my own, cannot walk on anymore if I don't have You by my side. Come to me, stay with me, close again, once more.