Yeah I know.

It's been awhile since I last posted. Well, somethings can't be helped.

I can choose to post something good or bad, but I think I'll be positive today.

Emerge: Awesome Yeah! Great competitions that kept me on the edge, fresh bread from heaven, new word and new visions. God is good. There is a destiny for me in Him. A greater destiny than anyone can ever think of. NP has emerged from the bottom position to the 6th position, and on the last night, we were screaming our heads off because we finally got some prizes. NEXT YEAR WILL BE OUR YEAR. I know it. It will happen. Go NP go!

One of the highlight of Emerge was the indoor soccer we played in hall 7. (unofficially). Lol. There was the security vs the NP + Bro Raymond team. We played and won! woohoo. Somehow, Steph and I were involved in a collision, but thank God, none of us was hurt. This coming Monday will be our POS appreciation. Life is getting back to schedule, can't say whether it's boring or exciting, but what I can tell is, Emerge is just the Beginning!

This past week was my common test. Hope I do well for it all. Spent some time with Ge Liang and Josh playing game, as well as Jiawei (He just went into NS). Josh is fun to be around with. Haha. We can click.

Alright, coming to serious matters. I'm disatisfied with the way my life is. There is something greater that I have not yet achieve. By this age, Alexander had already half of the world at his feet. I don't need to invade half the world, but there is definitely more to my potential than this! And of course, people around me think that I'm just like this and that, but I'm not. Detractors, and people who think lowly of you are not people I want to assosiate with. Age is not maturity. This is from my heart oh God. "Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!" So God granted him what he requested. If you will grant Jabez what he desires, surely you will grant me that. I'm tired of living a life that is caught in the middle between all out and stuck. I want to be a blessed radical.

Some see it as the end of the road
Some say that there is nothing left to do
But I'm not that someone who wasn't there
this is all making me sick

How much longer must I wait
before I get what I'm here to take
my fears and tears I've thrown behind
and I refuse to be dragged by them

I read my previous post. I realised that they were childish. Thoughts and words without power in them. And now I realised, I have grown. I have come to see that I'm not just living for me. I'm living for more than what I can dream of or imagine. Everything I'd do, I'd do it for you Lord.