Heart of holes

I took leave to spent today doing nothing substantial. Oh well.

I've finally got my White iPhone and it totally rocks. The apps are so cool it makes me salivalate. And whoever says that the keypad is hard to use? It's so intuitive that it doesn't make a difference whether you are a first time user or not. Serving the net is a breeze without all the long lags you would otherwise experience in a windows mobile IE. Plus the cool factor of staying connected on the go. It is definitely worth every dollar I paid for it.

I feel like I'm being put through a test of patience
expecting things that are not going to happen in a short span of time
sometimes I feel frustrated and it's not like I deserve it
all I wanted was someone to love someone who cares
my heart is on the verge of stopping
and my mind refuses to think logically anymore
are you still there? Can you hear me or read my soul?
What do I have to do?
All my pleas have fallen on deaf ears
I should have listened to what a wise one once said
it's not easy to go through the same thing everyday

He says that love is patience, it is long suffering
I'm not known to be particularly patient or long suffering
but for you I'll hang on till my last breath or the day you break my heart irrevocably.
Words can't tell you how much I love you still
it can't tell how much I will do for you.

What's left now are the holes in my heart I try to fill with insignificant things.
Like spending my time roaming around, eating the same things and the different things
indulging in some pointless activity and trying to revisit places
so much to the point that it's pointless to think of what will be.

Relationship is a bittersweet experience
as sweet as honey
as bitter as ash