well... broke up liao... to all out there who has yet to taste love, let your only love be the first and the last. no point breaking up and hurting each and everyone hard up their hearts.
talked to her nicely... thought that maybe somehow, there is still something in her that will make us go back to our first love.. no cares in the world whatsoever... just the two of us... that was not the case. saw her today.. never did see all her ugliness.. just saw her beauty... such a precious creature... then went and meet andrew for dinner... by the time i got back to her, adniversary had passed... talk to her... asked her wat she want... she said all's fine with her... says that we can still treat each other like friends... she wun hate me... i asked her if there was a chance that when i got better for her, she will want me.... she said maybe..... then got home..... her sms came and knock me over like a hammer... smack me headfirst........ what a dumb cow i've been...... she probably hates me more than ever... she wun be my fren anymore..... she doesn even wana tok to me...... she thinks that i only want to break up with her.......
but i just wana be a better person, and maybe her temper will improve as well..... gives a new meaning to stabbing in the back aint it........ i hate myself........ always thinking i can settle this and that....... always thinking that everything can go well with me in it........ cant trust myself anymore....... moron, jerk,idiot..... etc....... feel so dumb.. .stupid... ignorant........ call me naive........ first time noob.... i am.....
dunno wat to du now....... dun wana care about this dumb world anymore......... not worth it....... why should i? why should i?
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