final

She finally messaged him, it was what he expected after the long period of time she didn't contact him. It says to remain as friends. And even though he saw it coming, his heart can't help but sink. He didn't even asked her a thing. He felt in his heart that maybe something is wrong in him, that's why she didn't want him. He felt very lost. all the motivation has left him. He didn't know whether to fight on or just be the guy who will give her whatever peace she wants. Maybe now just isn't the time. So many maybes. So many heartaches. And just maybe he was meant to be single for the rest of his life no matter how much he longed for her. He didn't know, didn't really care anymore. He don't feel like doing anything. He told himself everything was fine, but it was all a lie. He'll probably cry in his sleep, though he won't admit. No he won't.

If it's friends for now, I hope you won't ignore me. Friends don't ignore each other do they? I will still keep my distance, but I'll be there. I don't want to give up now. It's not me to do so when I've waited so long for something like that to happen. You may not want me now, but it doesn't mean forever (optimistic?). I will fight for you. I don't want to be the loser anymore. I hope that before the end of the years, I would have captured your heart someway or another. For now, I'll just be still.

Words Can't Describe The Way I'm Feeling.