O.o

dunno what I've been doing these few days, have been distracted, wrote lots of dumb things ya. It's like the old days again. Why do I keep having to go through all these.

So many kinds of pressures lately, internal and external, though I rather not talk about it yet, not even to the inanimated blog. My stress reliever is gone, thanks to me, having to do the dumbest things I can imagine. If what I say doesn't makes sense, well, it really doesn't. cause I dunno what's going on in my head that made me so dumb.

Anyways, I feel really moody, get nag here and there, things not going my way, etc. But what am I complaining about? Bad things happens to good people and vice versa. Now still got TC to organise. Hmm, last minute work? I also dunno. Like no hope one, nothing to look forward to when I go home, nothing to look forward to when I answer the phone. It's either scoldings or more complaints, and to do more work.

These days
seems so empty
whenever I go home
the phone will not ring
when it does
it's someone else

Dumb as I am
I sent dumber messages
no wonder such things happen

I want to call you
want to talk to you
but I'm afraid to
you're probably busy
have I done something wrong
I think so

How come I'm so foolish
Why am I like this
It's not something I ask for
I dun wana believe in it

talking to you
makes me happy
takes away all the stress
but now because
a moment of folly
you seem so far away

Argh. Enough. Another dumb writing. So screwed up.