Sehs

Just came back from mac. Went with Don who cycled all the way here just to eat supper with me. Nice guy. Even though he was hungry, but he chose to come here. Thanks pal, you've been a good friend through this short period of time.

'If love is to wait a decade or two, would you wait?
If loving someone is to make the person happy at the expanse of yourself, will you?
And
If love means letting you go, to be free to find your own way, to know better guys out there, to make your dreams come through, then I will help you through subtlely even if it means losing you. Doesn't really matter as long as you find yourself in this world, have a purpose in life, and am happy with the quality of life. Cause I believe if I love you, I will help you achieve your happiness.

What I want is a girl who will love me as much as I love her.
What I need is a girl who will be with me.
What I have now is me.

This is what I'd say to you.

Girl,
I know I don't have the right to take away your freedom, your happiness, and plunge you into the probability of heartbreaks and broken promises. I know I can't gaurantee to you that I can be the best guy you'll ever have in your life, nor can I give you anything great in the world I haven't achieve.

But I want you to know, since the day I fall in love with you, you have never been outta my mind. Every night and day, you never fail to come into my mind. I tried not to think too much while you were gone, but I missed you like crazy, more than I missed anything else in my life. And when you're back, I feel that I need you even more. Even when you speak, smile or even yawn, brightness from the morning star feels my life. I feel refreshed in your innocence after being in the world of hatred.

I will be there when you need me to, I will share with you my thoughts and my feelings, I will take care of your needs, I will cherish you with all of my heart, I will write songs for you, I will make you special, I will run many miles to be with you...
But more importantly, I will love you with all of my heart.

I believe if we can truly love one, we can last a lifetime, and at the end of my life, I will be glad to age with you, to grow old with you, and to know that no other person could have replaced you in my life.

It feels like another day without you in my life will be empty. For only you can fill my heart.

Don't worry if you ain't ready, I'll be waiting (though my heart aches with pain), but if you have found your true happiness, I'd wish you all the best. Cause it's not about me but you. I want you to have the best, so that you can be the most happy girl I've ever known. And when you no longer need me to be there, I'll be gone from your life. I won't bother you anymore than I should.

and all that I can say now is, I know what's the meaning of love after I've seen you.
if you really like me too, would you give me the chance to hold you in my arms, to guide you with my thoughts, to leave your burden on my shoulders, to give you the warmth you never had, to share a future together, to be happy for as much as possible?

I need you.'

haiz.