inadequacy

Sigh, so many things to blog about. Lets' start about post-Christmas.

What did I get for Christmas? Lovely and sweet cards from Yee Joo, Mandy, a bag of cookies from Shuyun, and an Adidas bag from my beloved sister. So I open it all up on Boxing Day. Thanks a lot GIRLS (notice no guys? Probably because they spent their money buying presents for girls instead.) The cards were all so special, so wonderful. Those words meant a lot to me. So when I'm sad next time, I'll probably take it all out and read through it. It was very thoughtful of Shuyun to spent so much effort in making cookies for all of us. And it was quite good. All four ended up in my stomach. And of course, my sister, the very nice Adidas pouch. Thanks. =)

Now that Christmas is over, I can come up with my Christmas list. At least I can tell myself it's over, so even though I don't get any, it will be because it's over. If you know what I mean.

(Very basic things I need. Arranged in no particular order, not that you will care.)

1) Chronicles of Narnia the book series. (which reminds me, I've watched it. Shall blog about it when I have the time.)

2) Ipod 5G 60GB black. (when you want something, get the best.)

3) Erh. Bag. Adidas, Nike, or any nice sling bag.

4) W550i/W800i/W900i. (Anyone also can, best is all 3.)

5) Wallet. (Nice leather one as Arik said.)

6) MONEY. (Not money-faced, but I need it to survive.)

7) YOU. (Still figuring out why, what, when, where, who and how.)

Alright, so once again, I went to watch a movie alone on that day, The Chronicles of Narnia, absolutely wonderful. As I have said, shall blog about it one of these days.

Erm. What happened after that? Monday, hmm, what did I do? Amnesia. Sigh. Recalling or remembering? Oh, I slept for quite a long time. In the end, I just stayed at home most of the time, kind of moody. Should be the post-Christmas blues. Kind of really bad mood yesterday so I went to Funland alone, to frag somebody. Got a knifed victim and got knifed as well. Lol. I didn't care, just wanted to kill someone no matter how fake it is.

So it came to today. Went with Mao Shen (so nice of him to accompany me.) to Sembawang. Ate Cavana, then went to get my concession pass made. Finally, after such a long time. Heh heh. Total amount was $109. I got the hybrid one, so can travel around happily without worrying about the cost. While waiting for the card to be made, we went to watch King Kong. He is so... so... so much like... ME?! Don't know, but HE really resembles ME!!! I'm not saying I evolve from an APE, and behave like an APE (well, sometimes, but then again, that's another story.) but HE really looks like ME. Darn. King Kong my dear friend. Not to forget Godzilla. I just love monsters. If one day I become one, I'd prefer Godzilla, at least he comes back most of the time, and he gets to use atomic breathe and stuff like that. Woah. Imagine me on a rampage through town on New Year Eve, happily smashing all the buildings and breathing fire into all the bengs, melting them in an instant... Oh, sorry, I got carried away. Hmm. I'd probably spent New Year Eve alone as well. Well then, it doesn't really matter. Just gotta get used to it. Went to study OOP with Don afterwards, and we started LAN gaming AOM. Kind of fun. And then here I am, typing out everything.

hmm. I seemed to have so many weaknesses, so many inadequacy. I don't know, don't feel like talking much about it. If I want to admit one thing, it is that I do need the care, the love and the affirmation, and not just from anyone. It may or may not be you, but it will always be appreciated. Well, I shall stop before I sink into that feeling again. Keep smiling people, a new year awaits.