salvation lives in me

Didn't really feel like blogging, but well, I guess sometimes it's best to say what you want to say so that you can let go of certain things.

During the past few months, I saw many friends of mine becoming attached and then breaking off. It seems to never end. As for the people whom I've seen for a long time being together, I think, it's probably only Shawn and Yi fen, nearly one year. What's love to us nowadays? Or is it convenient liking? Like when you feel like it you shower your partner with love, giving good gifts and spending quality time together. And when things turn bad, you ignore each other and this love turns into hatred instead? I hope that this kind of thing don't happen to anyone I know. It's a bad feeling.

To be honest, I've been thinking about her occassionally, no matter what has happened. Sometimes, you just want to let go of everything, so that there is no longer an emotional attachment to the person you like and would have love to love. However, these are different times. People of different convictions may not be able to coexist together, and even if they have the true human love for one another, they may not compromise on their ideals and beliefs. Therefore, only God's love can stand the test of time. I really do feel lonely, especially when I see couples being able to spent time with one another, and confide in each other. I also long to have a real relationship with her, but that's what my physical eyes see. What my spiritual eyes senses is that only a relationship with God in it can last, because the love of God substitutes the love of Human, and since it never fails, it last. And I want to be led by the Spirit, not my flesh, so I will submit to the Spirit.

So yah, no matter what the future holds, I'm secured in God. Being with God and in His will means that I have to let go and let God, but I know that it is His will for us to be happy, so no matter what she ends up doing, or me for the matter, it is all in His hands.

Starting to play for other CGM tmr, at CCK. First time playing for other CGM. Had a lot of revelations about being a guitarist this week. I also played for leaders meeting. Thank God, as long as I lean on and trust in Him, I never fail to play well. Not me but HIM. Yes, that's the attitude that all the guitarist should have, and also christians in general.

'God above all the world in motion'