It's been an eventful week in MPTS. There was MPE test on Tuesday and range on Friday with all the preparations in between. In between there were the visits to the mess, foosballing with one another, pool, ping pong. We even celebrated Chong's birthday.
And I finally got to fire a pistol. The Sig Sauer P226. Once in a lifetime and I was so thrilled.
In another 2 weeks and 2 days, my trainee days will be over, and I will be really sorry when it happens. After that, how my NS life turns out will be dependent on where I get posted to.
Throughout the peer appraisal, I got to know people better. Those who try to get you to put them higher on the list by suddenly cosying up to you, or downright requesting so that they can get the platoon/company best, are a turn off. I'm a peace maker, despite what you like to think of me. So I decided not to get into the fray. So what if you are the best but only when you have to show it, and behind others back, you are nothing like what you are in front.
I'm riding a wave of emotions right now. It's hard to live everyday, but I'm a fighter and I will keep fighting. I'm tired of allowing others to take advantage of me anymore. I've been patient for too long, letting others drive their knives deeper and deeper into me. They have done things behind my back and have been forgiven over and over. They have not felt the things that I have. They will never know.
Dark and gloomy thoughts prevents me from having restful nights. I'm so tired.
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